And how I will roll going forward….
1) Sometimes I just can’t control an outcome. <The Serenity Prayer is perfect here, whether you are religious or not>
With the type of cancer she had, it’s kind of pure luck if you catch it in time to treat it. Large cell gastro lymphoma starts and becomes deadly in 6–8 weeks, and there are almost no signs of it until they stop eating, but then it’s mostly too late.
By the time they stop eating and loose enough weight that you notice, it has likely rooted itself in the bone marrow, and then it’s just palliative care at best.
Had the vet given her any better prognosis with chemo, I would have tried it. I would have rather given her the best chemo, while also giving her vitamins, minerals, silver, and probiotics, if we could have caught it in time.
If we didn’t spend 3 weeks ruling everything else out, maybe I would have opted for that. But the chance of chemo wrecking her quality of life was already too great, and being given about a 10% chance of 6–9 months left if chemo even worked, seemed pretty hopeless.
2) As a matter of practice, in the future — I wont let a vet run through every other test before ruling out cancer.
I will go straight to the specialists and rule out cancer, first. I know they are trying to save people money, but it’s not worth it. Just cut to the chase. I can rule out less deadly things after that.
3) CBD seems like a miracle for making your pet feel normal and alleviate symptoms of both cancer, and probably chemo too.
This is kind of depressing, because they can look like they are getting better, only to abruptly hit a wall. It’s ok, this will still improve their quality of life so much that it’s worth it, for sure.
I still have to let go of that feeling that if I would have done something different she might have had a better chance, because in the end, nothing brings her back, wallowing in what-if’s will not help.
I loved this cat probably as much as some of you love your kids.
I never really knew until this hit, but it’s true. I’ve had pets die before, but fortunately for me they were all elderly, and when it happened that somehow makes it easier to let go. This time, I found myself wanting to trade 10 years of my own life to get 10 more with her. That’s a kind of love I don’t think I’ve felt for a non-human before.
“The ballad of a 42 year old projecting his parental instincts onto his kitty.”
Thank you for reading!
If you have been through something like this, I feel you.
Much love to you and your fur babies.
Hold ’em close and take them on vacations with you, you won’t regret it.
-Chris
Automated Income Lifesyle w/ Chris Morton YouTube
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